Follow Up Appointment

I just had my follow up appt. The pathology reports came back with no answers. The miscarriage was just one of things that happen. The doctor said we have to wait 2 cycles until we can start trying again. She said if we tried sooner that there is an increased risk to miscarry again. I definitely do not want to go through that again. We discussed how we would monitor the next pregnancy. She said we would test my progesterone levels and have a sonogram at 6-7 weeks. I don't know that the sonogram will alleviate any fears since the baby stopped growing after that point last time but it will still be exciting to have an earlier one done. I am just glad to have all of this done with and look forward to 2009 and trying again.

I am going to try to keep my blog updated on my life besides baby stuff. If not, then I wouldn't have anything to write about for a few months.


We painted our living room last weekend. It looks so good! It doesn't even look like the same house! Since I never posted pics of my Christmas Tress, I will use these for the before and after pics!






Some more before and afters. Just ignore me and my laundry! It is the only picture I have from this angle.



And because I think it is hysterical, I will close this post with a picture of my cat Chloe!

A week has gone by

This time last week I was lying in recovery after my procedure. A week has already gone by since I lost my little one. Well, since I found out that I lost my little one. Each day gets better for the most part. Even though a day has not gone by that I don't cry.

Lee has been amazing through this whole thing. I definitely couldn't have gone through this without him. I could not ask for a better husband. We believe this has brought us closer together and our relationship has grown.

I would like to thank everyone for all of their support and prayers. I didn't realize so many people read my blog or even cared. Thanks!

Safe in the Arms of Jesus

I am extremely sad to say that we lost our baby.

We went in on Tuesday to hear the heartbeat. I was so nervous the whole way there. After waiting in the waiting room for 45 min we finally get called in. The doctor comes in with her Doppler and spends what feels like any eternity trying to find the heartbeat. I am shaking but trying to stay calm because I know that 10 weeks can be early to find a heartbeat with the Doppler. The doctor decides that we will have an ultrasound to find the heartbeat. We wait a few minutes for the tech who I quickly come to realize that I do not like. She isn't very friendly and is more worried about her computer being slow. She then rudely tells me to pull my pants down and lift my shirt up. Then she starts the ultrasound. She is moving the wand all around and I am watching the screen. She doesn't say anything to us, she just shouts through the closed door for the doctor. Obviously, by now I realize that my worst fears are coming true. I see my baby on the screen but there is no flickering of a heartbeat. They measure the baby and the tech keeps asking me if I am sure about my dates. I say nothing. The baby only measured 8 weeks.

They scheduled me for a d&e for the next morning. Alls I wanted to do was go home but they had to do blood work and register me at the hospital since I had never been there. The procedure went fine. The staff at the hospital was extremly nice and sensitive (except one doctor whom the nurse apoligized for).

The ornament that the hospital gave us gives me comfort. Knowing that our baby is in Jesus arms is the only thing getting us through this!

Weekly Update ~ 10 Weeks

I have hit the ten week mark! I am no longer in the single digits. I am now a quarter of the way done. That is exciting, right?? I still have been feeling pretty good. I am just tired all of the time. Lee has been a great help letting me rest while he cooks us dinner and picks up the house. Tuesday is our next appointment where we get to hear the heartbeat!!!! How exciting will that be? Hopefully it will make things seem more real.

Last night was the annual Ladies Tea at our church! I had a good time. We sang Christmas songs, ate lots and lots of cookies and opened presents!! The best part was all the men of the church were our waiters! Lee actually helped out this year and he looked so cute in his bow tie! I have pictures but they are not on my camera. I will post them when I get them.

With bones and cartilage starting to form and vital organs beginning to function, baby is making major progress. Body length will almost double in the next three weeks, and arm joints are now working. (Soon, legs will too.)

~~~~~~10 Week Picture~~~~~~