Follow Up Appointment

I just had my follow up appt. The pathology reports came back with no answers. The miscarriage was just one of things that happen. The doctor said we have to wait 2 cycles until we can start trying again. She said if we tried sooner that there is an increased risk to miscarry again. I definitely do not want to go through that again. We discussed how we would monitor the next pregnancy. She said we would test my progesterone levels and have a sonogram at 6-7 weeks. I don't know that the sonogram will alleviate any fears since the baby stopped growing after that point last time but it will still be exciting to have an earlier one done. I am just glad to have all of this done with and look forward to 2009 and trying again.

I am going to try to keep my blog updated on my life besides baby stuff. If not, then I wouldn't have anything to write about for a few months.


We painted our living room last weekend. It looks so good! It doesn't even look like the same house! Since I never posted pics of my Christmas Tress, I will use these for the before and after pics!






Some more before and afters. Just ignore me and my laundry! It is the only picture I have from this angle.



And because I think it is hysterical, I will close this post with a picture of my cat Chloe!

A week has gone by

This time last week I was lying in recovery after my procedure. A week has already gone by since I lost my little one. Well, since I found out that I lost my little one. Each day gets better for the most part. Even though a day has not gone by that I don't cry.

Lee has been amazing through this whole thing. I definitely couldn't have gone through this without him. I could not ask for a better husband. We believe this has brought us closer together and our relationship has grown.

I would like to thank everyone for all of their support and prayers. I didn't realize so many people read my blog or even cared. Thanks!

Safe in the Arms of Jesus

I am extremely sad to say that we lost our baby.

We went in on Tuesday to hear the heartbeat. I was so nervous the whole way there. After waiting in the waiting room for 45 min we finally get called in. The doctor comes in with her Doppler and spends what feels like any eternity trying to find the heartbeat. I am shaking but trying to stay calm because I know that 10 weeks can be early to find a heartbeat with the Doppler. The doctor decides that we will have an ultrasound to find the heartbeat. We wait a few minutes for the tech who I quickly come to realize that I do not like. She isn't very friendly and is more worried about her computer being slow. She then rudely tells me to pull my pants down and lift my shirt up. Then she starts the ultrasound. She is moving the wand all around and I am watching the screen. She doesn't say anything to us, she just shouts through the closed door for the doctor. Obviously, by now I realize that my worst fears are coming true. I see my baby on the screen but there is no flickering of a heartbeat. They measure the baby and the tech keeps asking me if I am sure about my dates. I say nothing. The baby only measured 8 weeks.

They scheduled me for a d&e for the next morning. Alls I wanted to do was go home but they had to do blood work and register me at the hospital since I had never been there. The procedure went fine. The staff at the hospital was extremly nice and sensitive (except one doctor whom the nurse apoligized for).

The ornament that the hospital gave us gives me comfort. Knowing that our baby is in Jesus arms is the only thing getting us through this!

Weekly Update ~ 10 Weeks

I have hit the ten week mark! I am no longer in the single digits. I am now a quarter of the way done. That is exciting, right?? I still have been feeling pretty good. I am just tired all of the time. Lee has been a great help letting me rest while he cooks us dinner and picks up the house. Tuesday is our next appointment where we get to hear the heartbeat!!!! How exciting will that be? Hopefully it will make things seem more real.

Last night was the annual Ladies Tea at our church! I had a good time. We sang Christmas songs, ate lots and lots of cookies and opened presents!! The best part was all the men of the church were our waiters! Lee actually helped out this year and he looked so cute in his bow tie! I have pictures but they are not on my camera. I will post them when I get them.

With bones and cartilage starting to form and vital organs beginning to function, baby is making major progress. Body length will almost double in the next three weeks, and arm joints are now working. (Soon, legs will too.)

~~~~~~10 Week Picture~~~~~~

9 Weeks and Feeling Great!

We are 9 weeks now! Not much new to report. I still feel great! Whaahooo!!!








Your little embryo has now officially graduated to fetus-hood. Adding to the excitement, a Doppler ultrasound device might be able to pick up the beating heart. With basic physical structures in place and increasingly distinct facial features, baby is kind of starting to look like... well... a baby!




Updated Picture



Thanksgiving Pic

Festive Blog

I updated my blog for the holidays!! Not really festive but more wintery but I still like it! I can't wait till next weekend when I get to pull out all of my Christmas decorations. I love finding things I forgot I had! Although, I could use some more!!!! I did buy me a new ornament this weekend! You can't have too many Christmas decorations can you???

Happy Birthday to Me!!

Yesterday was my Birthday! I am now 29 years old. Yikes! This time next year I will be 30 years old with a baby! I went out yesterday and bought some bibs for baby but for my family. I got one that says "I love my Aunt!" and a set about how great grandpa is and how great grandma is! They loved them! I should take a picture of them to post since they are the cutest!

As for how I have been feeling, I feel great! I am exhausted all the time but other than that I am good. I was scared about morning sickness since my mom was sooooo sick with my sister and I. So far so good!

Your baby is growing like mad, putting on about a millimeter every day and continuing to straighten out in the trunk. Though you can't feel it yet, baby is moving those little arms, legs and (now only slightly) webbed fingers and toes like crazy.

Weekly Picture!!



Funny Picture!

On to week 7

Another week has gone by already! I have been feeling pretty good lately. I get a little queasy every now and then. I do not like to brush my teeth anymore! Yuck! Some days nothing sounds good to eat and I am always tired. But overall I do not have much to complain about. Cross your fingers that this is how it will stay.

Our baby is the size of a Blueberry this week! How cute is that!

Baby's brain -- both hemispheres! -- is growing fast, generating about 100 new cells every minute. Arms and legs are emerging as joints start to form, and a permanent set of kidneys (baby's third!) is now in place.

Here is the weekly belly pic!

Picture Update!

Okay so I have a big belly! Especially for being only 5 weeks 5 days! Compared to other girls blogs that I have read I have a 14 week belly! I am going to be GINORMOUS!! I know it is just bloat, just bloat that I can't even suck in all the way!

1st Doctors Visit

Yesterday was our 1st doctors appointment. Obviously nothing too exciting happened but it was still exciting to be going to our 1st baby appointment. They weighed me in and had me pee in a cup. By the way, peeing on demand is very difficult for me to do! Of course once they get you in the room they make you wait awhile. So Lee and I were looking at baby magazines. Anyway, she did a pelvic exam to check the size of my uterus. She said that it is large more like an 8 week uterus! So that sounds good to me! Then we went over a few questions and they gave me a ton of different vitamin samples. They also took 3 vials of blood to test. Over all it was a good visit. My next appointment is Dec 9 and we get to hear the heartbeat!!! I am soo excited for that!!! This month is going to take forever to go by!

I am PREGNANT!!

So I am just now getting to updating my blog.
I got my BFP last Wednesday. I was not charting this month because I was just needing a break from it. I came home early from work that day because I needed to meet the UPS man. For some reason, I got the itch to test. I couldn't even tell you where I was in my cycle but I just wanted to test. So I dropped 4 drops of pee on the stick and instantly I thought I saw something. I was bending over to get a closer look and by the time I bent down it was quite obvious that it was positive. I was in total shock. I went back and forth from the bathroom to look at the test to sitting on the bed for probably 30 min. Once I was able to move again I got out the little onesie I had made for Lee and wrapped it up with the test. (Of course I unwrapped it a few times just so I could see the test again. What a dork!). I could not wait for Lee to get home from work! I paced around the house for a while and then he finally pulled in the driveway. I was so nervous but excited to tell him. He comes in the house (10mins later) and I am cheesing big time! He kept asking me what was wrong with me and I said "Oh nothing" as I kept on smiling! Finally he wouldn't talk to me until I told him what was up. So I ran in the bedroom and got his present. As he was opening it he said "Are you pregnant?" Once he opened it he just said "Oh WoW!" and hugged me!

~~Lee's Present~~

We wanted to tell my family right away. We were able to all meet at my sister's store (which never happens). Lee nonchalantly said, "Do you want to see what Nichole got me?" and handed over the onesie and test wrapped in tissue paper. My mom opened it and then immediately threw it in the air screaming bloody murder! Once my sister and dad figured out what was going on dad started crying!

My due date according to LMP is July 4th!
My symptoms before the test were extremely sore boobs! Now, I am very tired and my boobs still hurt. Every now and then I will get a little queasy. Lee's favorite so far is my gas!
I have posted a few pics


~~Three of the five tests I took~~





~~Love the bloat~~

BIG FAT NEGATIVE!!

AF was due to arrive yesterday but did not show! So I went out and bought some tests. I take my temp this morning and I have a temp increase again. I am thinking "Whoohoo!!" so I take a test and it is a BIG FAT NEGATIVE! What???? So the only thing I can think is 1) I just am one of those people who gets really late test results or 2) the Progesterone is causing this beautiful looking chart and screwing with my head! BLAH!

So Proud of Myself!

I have been wanting to learn how to crochet for a while now. I tried to teach myself the other night and I didn't do half bad. Well, my friend came over this weekend and taught me how to do it the right way. So tonight I finished my first scarf! It is cute and I made it all by myself! I am so excited that I know how. Now I can make my future baby lots of cute blankies! Woohoo!

And on a side note, I tested early this morning with a BFN...but it isn't over yet!

Testing Early

So I want to test Saturday(12dpo) or Sunday(13dpo)! I know that is early but I have good reason. If I remember correctly if you have good reason then it is okay. My reason is that I gave my sister the link to my chart. She is stalking my chart like mad and analyzing everything. I told her we wouldn't test until at least 15dpo. I want to test early just in case I get a BFP. That way I can alter my chart so it looks as if I am out this month! But maybe I am just making excuses to test early...

20 Things About Me!!

So I started this a few days ago and thought I lost it so I gave up. Well I found it so lets see if I can come up with 20 things about myself~

1) I learned how to ride a motorcyle last summer and I even got my motorcycle license. But then when it came to riding out in the big world I was SCARED! I can do it but can I react fast enough when something happens. I don't think so. I know practice practice practice, but I am too scared to even practice! But atleast I learned and I am proud that I did!

2) I am teaching myself how to crochet. I just started last night and I have to say I think I did a pretty good job for my first night! Lee told me last night that I was the only 28 year old girl (because I am not a woman until I am 30) that crochets so I pulled up Hislovf's blog to show him that I am not!! lol

3) I love to cook but I hate cleaning when I am done. Therefore I don't cook as much as I would love too!

4) Everytime we move into a new house, which is twice, I HATE IT! I want my old house back the way I had it. But in the end I love my new house more than the previous house. It just takes me time to make it my own and make it cozy. So here I am a year later in my house and I LOVE IT!

5) I drive a Chevy HHR! It gets great mileage and is soooo roomy! I love my car! But don't ask me what color it is because it is hard to say. I say it is a cream and Lee thinks it is silver. It's technical color is Cappachino Frost. Sounds creamy to me!

6) I played basketball in school but I sucked at it! I didn't go to a school were you had to try out for the team. If you wanted on you were on! I sat on the bench every game (except if we were winning big or losing big) from 7th grade through 11th grade. The odd thing is I was a started my senior year. I still sucked!

7) I love sitting outside and watching nature. I have seen deer, foxes, fish, snakes, turtles, bats, a million different kinds of birds. I think it is awesome that you can find all that in my yard!

8) I played in the clarinet in school. I have no idea where my clarinet is but I wonder about it. I wonder if I can still play it?

9) I would like to go sky diving but I think I might chicken out!

10) I love sheets and blanket! I would buy some everyday if I could!

11) I hate it when my PJ pants touch my ankles. They have to be dragging on the floor! It just seems cozier that way!

12) I love my birthday! I will start a count down a month before and it drives everyone nuts! But it is MY Birthday!!

13) I used to be scared, as in panic attack scared, of dogs. When I was little I was attacked by a German Shepard. I am getting better but if I don't like it when dogs jump up on me. I just have to get to know the dog and I will be okay.

14) I am the biggest klutz! I walk into the walls on a daily basis. I can hurt myself anywhere and usually do!

15) I have on older sister. She is 2 years and 9 months older than me and everyone thinks we look like twins! I wouldn't go that far but we do look alike.

16) I am my mothers clone. We look identical, have the same attitude, and have the exact same handwriting. You can not even tell our handwriting apart.

17) I have three cats and they are spoiled rotten! But I love them all dearly! Well I guess I have four cats, one lives outside.

18) I am a nail bitter! I always have been and probably always will be. I let them grow once and I hated it. I hate the feeling of nails when you make a fist! I guess there are other ways to keep them short but I like to bite them!

19) I love putting puzzles together. Once I start one I can not stop until it is done! But the problem is I never get to do them because my cats break them and eat the pieces!

20) If I push my belly out and can make myself look 5 months pregnant! HA!

Okay there I did it! Took me awhile but it is done!

Confirmed Ovulation!!

I had my third high temp today so I got my crosshairs! Woohooo! Now I start the Prometrium every night. Other than that, I just sit and pray. I would much rather be sitting here in the 2ww wait than waiting to O. The stress is over since there is nothing left for me to do. I will keep you updated on my phantom symptoms but I believe that the Prometrium has a lot of side effects that are the same as pregnancy symptoms. Anyway, I pray that this is it!

First Blog Post

So I am so bored today that I am starting my own blog. Everyone will have to bear with me as I try to figure this blogging thing out. But atleast everyone gets to go through this journey with me!

So I am waiting patiently for my baby. I see other people babies and I want my own little tiny baby, toddler, kid...still not sure I want a teenager! ha I want to see Lee be a daddy! It will be the most absolute precious thing in the whole world. Of course I am scared about EVERYTHING but I know that this is what we want!

I am on CD15 waiting to O. I thought I had O'd on CD12 but my body wanted to disagree with me. My temp dropped this morning causing me not to get crosshairs. Our timing is still right on so just waiting patiently (or not so patiently) to O.

That's it for now but I will keep you updated on everything going on in my life. I bet everyone is soooo excited.